Hard to say goodbye

So it's been a few months since I have played FFXIV (final fantasy 14) and still in my mind I refuse to admit that I quit the game (tho i am not saying I will never return to the game just at the moment it doesn't look like it).

I have been playing lots of mmos in my life and it feels always odd to not play any, as currently I dont have a single mmo to play (foremost reason being: I don't have a proper gaming computer or simply put I dont have a computer to call my own atm) so I am playing HotS and dragon blaze mostly, time to time other free/no monthly fee online games just to spend time.

 

The biggest reason why I / we stopped was the lack of endgame content and fun stuff to do.. currently the only end game is Alexander savage and we reached A2 (out of 4) there and doing even those first 2 and practising slightly 3 wasn't that much fun compared to the amazing Binding Coil of Bahamut raid what was fun and challenging. The casual content (dungeons/ hunts/ leveling.etc) isn't that fun especially as there wasn't any point or goal for me personally anymore.

The reason I have so hard times letting go of that game is that I met the most amazing people who I have ever met trough a game ._. I found the perfect  people to play with/ had the most amazing people to raid with and had fun people in my FC (thankfully I still have contact to most of those people that they haven't disappeared from my life). I just miss so much playing with them and I wish so much that if FFXIV doesn't turn to be a fun game to us to play anymore we will find some other game to spend some quality time together again someday.

(I guess that is what I want to say down here - I am gonna put links to videos if anyone is interested to see our accomplishments ingame)

loving you all 

♡Krystijan Kharon♡

♡Talon Silverhawk♡

♡Menoetius Oathbreaker♡

♡Sylvia Lucille♡

♡Barbaric Ajit♡

♡Nola Stiltzkin♡

❤Artur Flaute, Fractal Bloodbath, Milah Ayanami, Jabz, Alice (jenova), Hanne Su'rimo, Elaith Freyr,  Jupiter Piria, Tyke , Aest'ra Alheimurinn, Ricard Teylinn, Fither Demetrius, Rigid Paradise, Sorrowsong, Ui, Shizu King, Kelia Snack, Pete, Princess Fluffybutt, Muffin Lovell, Balthazar Tigertail, Kai, Karma, Yuki❤

and all the others whose name I cannot remeber

BCoB T5 kill (final boss)

SCoB T6 kill

SCoB T7 kill

SCoB T8 kill

SCoB T9 kill (final boss) (you can see me killing almost everyone in the end ho-ho-ho)

FCoB T10 kill

FCoB T11 kill

FCoB T12 kill

FCoB T13 kill (final boss)

Alex savage turn 1

Alex savage turn 2

 

 I am going to buy some game time to FFXIV someday soon to just log in and say hello to people who i dont have contact outside the game and anyway to just stand in Gridania and idle

✝ : Alaska / Armisael Kharon

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Guess I should update here aswell as I really would like to keep writing here. I just have no idea what to type here ever (｡•́︿•̀｡) or feel stupid as I have written all the things already somewhere else in social media. 

I guess I have something to tell.. me and my partner have been together for 2 years (￣▽￣)  (or something like that atleast its been 2+ years that we have had the serious conversation about our relationship).

  

♡

then.. I have been spending way, way too much time with mobile game called Dragon Blaze... I am so addicted to it (๑´•д • `๑) .. dowloaded it about 9 months ago and since then it's been open almost 24/7.... 

Other than that I've been waiting exitedly for christmas and SNOW ʚ♡⃛ɞ(ू•ᴗ•ू❁).  My mom sent me a salmiakki christmas calender (and lots of other nice stuff ♡ luv you mami) and I've been listening to chistmas songs every day and humming them all over the village happily as christmas waiting time is always the most magical, especially when there is snow around and people have candles fired on their windowsills.

Everyone is just happier around christmas and the beginning of winter even those who claim to hate winter/christmas.. you might but the christmas magic is still working on you (♡ ὅ ◡ ὅ )ʃ♡

now back to cooking :3  

(next time I promise to update something bit more interesting. atleast i try so (´-﹏-`；))

✝ : Alaska

༼ ༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ༽

I was not supposed to let this blog die just yet and I ain't going to let it. I just have been kinda busy lately and then.. when I was not MY COMPUTER BROKE (︶︹︺). but luckily I have my partners laptop to play and browse with so am not completely on dry land.

Just wanted to write something to let you know I am going to continue with this. Hopefully in few days bit more exiting and fullfilling posts (｡◝‿◜｡)

(Wanna do new horns like these but with a new shape! Just have been trying to do some new shapes and sizes and am always very unhappy with the results (꒪⌓꒪))

Well I guess that is all for this time hopefully bit more exiting post next time!

✝ : Alaska  

To do list - Health -> Done !

or was done as I was sent to a hospital.... (interesting post about my health to everyone!)

But it's all good and am happy that it is over now. Tho' it wasn't the most pleasant experience initially as the doctors were telling me all kind of horrible thingies what I might have and I was crying my eyes off when I was told to go to a different hospital to get a proper treatment.

well after 2 ~ 2.5 h travel I finally arrived there 10.00 pm and I was taken to this horrible room where I had nothing else to do other than joke what kind of slaughterhouse this is..


Luckily all doctors were extremely kind and understanding and did all kinds of test to make sure nothing serious is going on in my body. I needed to spend the night in there (my first time staying a night in hospital and first time eating hospital food YEY !) 

+ liquid luch x 3

(I hated that thingie in my arm so much I needed to keep it on the whole time and it was so painfull ;_;)
on the next day they performed an endoscopy to check my belly (luckily I had 15 minutes anesthesia
 so my experience was very pleasant as I have heard horrible stories about that).

So all good in the end. I have had an inflammation in my throat and upper parts of my stomach what caused time to time irritation and fevers + I have "small" case of Gastroesophageal reflux disease (stomach acid comes up from my stomach to my throat) + some very rare case that my bile goes to my stomach (lucky me! -__-). (+ I am a nicotine abuser!).

Well in the end I am happy to know what has been bugging me and I don't need to worry anymore what is wrong with me and I know what to do to prevent feeling bad. :3

But to all of you ppl who have stomach pains (or any pains)... get yourselves checked don't drive yourselves mad like I did using Google as your personal doctor.


















 
✝ : Alaska 

遥か遠く 夜を越えて 砂漠の海を 彷徨う

I turned 25... and that's a lot .. tho hopefully just 1/4 of my life as 100+ is what I aim for ! At my birthday I was taken to a restaurant. It was lovely and the food was amazing nothing special as I am not that much of a birthday person. Now as I have turned 25 I have tried to think about what to do in life.. but as I hate to plan in long term I decided just to plan for the following year.. what I  aim for is

 (just a random food from ma birthday nothing to do with my future plans)

Move to other city
Get my health check properly (I have long time heartburn problems x_x)
Get 2 cats !
Finish my million unfinished projects (at least few of them...)
Try to save some money (HAHAHA)
Get something new and shiny to my skin
And the typical poop be better person / partner / friend and overall better human
And most importantly try to not be as lazy as I am..

There is something what I am expecting to do in my life as an 25 years old but let's be honest most exited I am about those cats XD

Also this year I got into crafting again so here is a picture of 2 (again) unfinished projects.. hopefully I can provide you with a finished result someday soon ! 

bit confusing picture but I guess there is not much to see. Well you may admire my computer taple's messiness.

I was supposed to post this one after my birthday but been busy with Dragon Age Inquisition! Been pleasantly surprised how good that game has been this far  :3

Happy valentines day to you all  ❤ 

btw. why walking on a field of untouched snow without it breaking underneath you feels like there is some magic involved ?  


meee someday in past + photoeditin skillzz 

✝ : Alaska